June 14th, 2023 Am I grasping at straws I've placed myself?
My self deprecation Are humbling jokes As to starve my ego Not a reflection of self hatred My sense of self
Like a tower of crystal glasses My hope stacks higher Waiting to come crashing down And lacerate my heart below A thousand tiny shards
Do not mistake my silence, For absence. I will always be there for you. Always. But I must be here for myself,
My vision clouds with these tears Tears made from our memories Maybe one day the they will stop Or I won’t feel them anymore
This noose of hope Around my neck A memory rope Myself I wreck I cannot leave
This bed is too big I have too much space These blankets are too much Engulfing me, but I still shiver I have too much food
Waste my time Or break my heart You don’t get both
In the depths of heartbreak’s icy… Where tears flow freely, leaving t… A soul finds solace in longing’s b… Aching for a love it hopes to rega… The echoes of laughter, once share…
When we met You found me At my worst When we loved Time stood still
Are you eating enough? Are you staying hydrated? Are you loving yourself? Or is your breath left bated? Are you sleeping enough?
The World ended, not with a bang, but with a sniffle. a tear. a cracked voice. First came the Horseman of Silenc…
Do not assume these words of hurt Are directed at you I have bared to you my heart and s… Yet our words remained withheld Do not assume these words of pain
Help me to understand it Help open up my eyes I’m trying to move past it But I can’t seem to see why When we’re together
If you told me To lay down my arms I would raise my shields Yet I surrender If you warned me
People always say, “These feelings will fade away” Which ones, love or pain?