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Mourning Gabriella Antoinette

In Memory Of My Sweet Little 6 year Old Cousin, Her Life taken by her own father. May she be flying high with the angels, and may we make her proud everyday as she watches us from above. Gone but never forgotten. We Love You SO Much Ella. <3

As I sat there today,
I kneeled down and began to pray,
Asking the Lord to allow her to wake.
I knew what I was asking was an impossibility,
Babygirl in HEAVEN, please protect Lil Man Jai..
I was trying to find the right words to say,
but I felt as if I was suffocating,
There was nothing I could do to take the pain,
to make it better, or to make this ok,
I felt so heart broken, my poor family  
She was just a baby,
Why couldn’t it instead had been me?
 
Life is too short, tomorrow is not guaranteed,
You just never know when this may too become your reality,
Do not take it for granted,
love with all you can,
tell those you love that you love them
while you still have the chance,
 
I wished even if temporarily,  
I could be like Biggie,
and it would all be, just a dream,
instead this was unfortunately,  
Undeniably,.  
Regrettably.,  
and sadly,  
this was all of our reality,
All the memories,
coming back, flooding,
haunting me,
I wanted to run away,
curl in a ball, and just fade,
as if none of this was happening,
to me,
nor my family,  
 
Life is too short, tomorrow is not guaranteed,
You just never know when this may too become your reality,
Do not take it for granted,
love with all you can,
tell those you love that you love them
while you still have the chance,
 
Life is too precious, people never seem to see,
just how short and fragile life can be,
My knees began to become weak,
My eyes swelling and teary,  
And I couldn’t breathe,
or hold my weight on my own two feet,
It felt as if everything around me,
was collapsing,
I couldn’t even begin to think of the pain,
to lose such a precious member to our family,
She was only in the second grade,
 
Life is too short, tomorrow is not guaranteed,
You just never know when this may too become your reality,
Do not take it for granted,
love with all you can,
tell those you love that you love them
while you still have the chance,
 
When I got back to my babies,
after the wake,
I had to hide the tears and hide the pain,
I grasped my son’s step mom and kept saying my thanks,
Today at the wake,  
I held each member to my family,
placed my good ear on their chest to hear their heart beat,
Just thinking what if that was the last time I get to be,
in this family, together, gathering,
Full of sorrow, I’m sorry  
—Just grieving,  
I don’t have the right words to say,
that’s why I chose mainly,
to not say a thing,
Everyone was asking,
if I was healthy,
I had to smile and act like it was ok,
but reality is each and every day,
I will be stuck with the thought that it won’t be,
 
Life is too short, tomorrow is not guaranteed,
You just never know when this may too become your reality,
Do not take it for granted,
love with all you can,
tell those you love that you love them
while you still have the chance,
 
I know, maybe,
This is just part of mourning,  
I said thank you to God for giving me,
another day, another chance to breathe,
One more day with my babies,
even if it were to be,
the last one for you or for me,  
Thank God for this moment, because time doesn’t freeze,
you have to take each moment - momentarily,
because as they say,
Tomorrow is not guaranteed.
I ask for everyone that is willing to read,
to never give up, keep chasing your dreams,
Go in full heed,
whatever it means,
to be happy,
to succeed,
or to achieve,
 
Life is too short, tomorrow is not guaranteed,
You just never know when this may too become your reality,
Do not take it for granted,
love with all you can,
tell those you love that you love them
while you still have the chance,
 
And never forget to keep praising,
today, you have a chance to breathe,
a breath where someone else is being given wings,
I ask you to hear my begging,
my pleads,
Please,
if only for this piece,
Just listen to me,
 
Life is too short, tomorrow is not guaranteed,
You just never know when this may too become your reality,
Do not take it for granted,
love with all you can,
tell those you love that you love them
while you still have the chance,

My six year old cousin Gabriella Antoinette Steinbrecher Quinn was killed by her father a few months ago on August 29,2014. The mourning process is so hard, especially when you witness a child in a casket.

#Death #Grief #LovedLoss #Mourning #Ones #Sorrow

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