Blind, by Amy J.

Amy J.

Blind

Why am I so hideous?

No wonder he let me go,

Even I repulse myself.

No one will ever know.

I can’t believe he left her,

How could he be so ignorant,

To leave behind such an angel?

I know this, he will regret.

Why am I so stupid?

To think he would ever love me…

I have nothing special to offer,

No popularity or beauty.

What’s happening to you?

Can’t you see yourself the way I do?

You’re perfect, you’re beautiful…

Can’t you see that I love you?

I was never pretty enough,

Now it’s in my own hands.

Not pretty enough for him,

Not pretty enough for his demands.

I see you from a distance,

Am I the only one who sees?

You’re destroying your beauty,

You’re falling to your knees.

Why did he leave me?

Now I’m all alone.

I have nothing left to offer,

From this, I could be gone.

Why do you still want him?

I promise you’re too good,

To be hurt by such a monster,

To be crushed by such a fool.

No one will ever love me,

My plan has completely failed,

Is this what I wanted before?

To be weak, and sick, and frail?

I want to life you back up,

To tell you it’s okay,

I’m scared that you’ll reject me,

That you will turn me away.

I’m fading away,

Can someone come and save me?

Save me from myself?

Save me from this misery?

Please don’t do this.

I’ve been here all along,

Waiting for you to realize,

That with me is where you belong.

…

Finally I’ve found you,

I’m sorry it took me this long,

For me to finally realize,

That with you is where I belong.

(2011)

I wrote this for a project on eating disorders. It's a conversation between a guy and a girl.

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