Depression hit me like a book

Maybe it was the first boy I kissed

Or the first one that took advantage

Maybe the girls who tried their hardest

Or those who didn’t try at all

I woke up one day and couldn’t feel anything at all

This went on for weeks even months

I’ve seen too many doctors too count

Each one saying the same

She’s not happy but she will be ok

She will smile soon

It’s just a phase

Is it just a phase

The fears still haunt me

The nightmares lie awake

The monster doesn’t sleep at night

We stay awake and talk about my dreams

I wanted to be famous

I wanted to be pretty

We don’t all get what we want

Some get a nice house and family

Others get abused and beaten

Life is not fairy tale

More of a cycle than a story

You’re born then born again

Same body different girl

The happiness inside

Underneath the sadness

The doctor calls it

Undergoing depression

I call it life