Surrender
It’s okay to force a smile even for a little while to let everyone know that your okay.
It’s easier said than done to be happy and have fun when it’s hard to get out of bed each day.
It is always running like a clock, the thoughts come through they never stop.
Life is hectic and full of stress and I’m so tired, I need to rest.
I feel empty. I feel numb. It takes a lot not to succumb.
It’s always been there, when I’m weeping, or in my dreams when I am sleeping.
I cannot escape it, but I can fake it, to muddle through each and every day.
Please don’t judge me and how I am, I cannot control it. It’s not a sham.
These thoughts and feelings are very real, and every day harder to conceal.
I need help and I’m reaching out to tell you what my life’s about.
It’s sadness that I’m feeling and my mind is always reeling.
Memories are a distant haze and in my eyes a cloudy glaze.
No matter what my future hold, I have a story to be told.
It’s a secret I’ve never shared. I didnt know that people cared.
One thing I do know is that I’m not alone. There are many hearts as cold as stone.
When I’m sad, alone, and blue, these thoughts come to me, they always do.
It stays with me, it does not render, until I give up and surrender.
I lost my friends, and it’s my fault. My pain is sealed within a vault.
No one really has the key to unlock the pain and set it free.
My heart goes out to those that know this feeling of emptiness within the soul.
I feel ashamed I can’t begin to tell my story from within.
It stays with me it will not render until I give up and surrender..
It’s a battle, it’s a fight, to keep on living and do what’s right.
(2013)
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