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Internal disurbance

Sleeping with the enemy.

The silence is loud
it’s echoes flood me with pain.
The darkness profound
seems to call out my name.
 
An internal disturbance,
why do I welcome this doubt?
An intruders assurance
Deciding my route.
 
Detached  from reality,
I fumble existence.
So far from normality,
My thoughts are relentless.
 
What gave birth to this damage?
I’m plagued by this question.
Will I rise from the wreckage
Or succumb to depression?
 
I fall asleep with the enemy,
and it taunts me with fear.
All this darker intensity
lies between my own ears.
 
I starve it with pleasure,
But it always returns.
An exhausting endeavor,
That mutes your concerns.
 
I crave a beginning,
an impulsive decision.
I’m awfully convincing,
with a drastic transition.
 
My facades have been plenty,
I evolve and adapt.
But I stand with transparency,
exposed and abstract.

Just an internal battle I endure from time to time. A little like normal, but more intense each time.

#brain #dark #doubt #mentalhealth #struggle #twisted

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