Dear enemy,

Now I know it has been a long time since you’ve began hunting me. You preyed on my weak, innocent soul. I was vulnerable, young, inexperienced, I was a baby and you chose family to destroy my innocence. You chose family to make my sweet, young, genitals to feel what only a grown woman should feel. I yearned for that feeling, I needed that, I craved it. I was tampered with and I thought it was ok. You chose me to wonder what the love of a man feels like, you left me wondering what exactly it is that a man wants from a woman because being myself as a child was never enough. Adult issues, financial instabilities got in the way of a man, who was suppose to be my father, got in the way of him showing me love, got in the way of him showing that being me was enough. All I’ve known is misery though there were good times, the negative always seemed to dominate. You placed in outstanding woman in my life and I call her mother. Despite her strengths and her ability to take care of us, she was never happy. Her smiles were forced. Her happiness has never been visible for everyone to see. She was living in misery. Everything that I’ve been through is embedded in me and I want it to all disappear. So enemy of mine, Im weak, I have no fight left in me, I am at my breaking point. You’ve won, so please let me be free.

                   Sincerely
              A broken child