(I don't like you)
(2001)
*nickname given to me by an abusive ex.
#Abuse #Anger #Goodbye #Sadness
Waves crashing Quenching my thirst, Distracting from my outer layer be… Stripped away. Old sand stolen as it recedes.
One passionate night. My mind sings “Now or never.” If I asked to rape you, would you… To become a mesh of lustful skin With not so innocent kisses in bet…
I can go on without you. Days can pass before you cross my… Except when I hear our songs. They take me back To everything I ever felt for you…
“Can I keep you?” I said. “For as long as you want” he repli… It wasn’t til later I realized I… “What if you change your mind?”
Different level of thinking. Afraid of knowing. Afraid of being known. Afraid of my eyes and being seen. A joy it would be to walk around i…
I never thought it would come to t… The high used to last all night. The shine is now dull. “Let Her… This may be why. Like a flip of a switch,
Surprisingly I’m not sad. I’ve already mourned you. Pined for you. Wishing you were mine. Goodbye is a formality
Do you remember how I’d kiss you? Softly at first Drawing you in Teasing Wanting
I still think of your skin. Of your lips on mine. I still miss your kiss. Your hands on my face. Our fingers entwined when we’d mak…
New pictures on my wall That you’ll never see. No longer coming around To be with me. Only you can make them colorful.
I’m in love With the idea of you. Moments I’ve pieced together And called a relationship. I only know part of you.
I hate you as much as you hate me. You ruin everything I have. I’m so ready to move out. I don’t want to be around you as m… I’m sorry I woke you up.
Run my fingers through your hair. Hold your face in my hands and Just stare. Stare into your deep blue eyes. Your eyes are the ocean that calms…
I asked and waited... I held my breath. Imagining scenarios and replaying… “Are you IN LOVE with me?” susp… Then, a reply...
I miss you. I try to find the words. More elaborate, Romantic, Profound.