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If only I could be you, just only for a moment.

I want to see that photo again,
study it properly.
I want to hold the print in my hand,
smell the faded mixture of ink and gloss varnish on it’s surface,
feel it smooth under my fingers.
I want to hold it like it was my own,
like the moment presented had been part of my life.
 
If only I had been you,
just even for a moment,
to get close to knowing you properly,
to understand you truly;
what could only really be
if I were to be you,
just only for a moment.
 
You see,
I’ve only ever been me.
I’ve heard other’s stories,
felt other’s feelings
through empathy,
compassion…
And learnt to see into the minds of those I’ve had the privilege to
listen to, study, observe…
And the closest I’ve gotten to ever understanding anyone
is through experiencing things similar to
what I’ve known them to experience.
Yet I still long,
to go deeper,
to get closer
to knowing what it’s like to be
anyone other than me.
Oh how I long to step outside my own subjectivity!
 
If only I could be you,
just only for a moment.
Then I could experience knowing him the way that you do,
and could see him beyond the role he took on in my life.
I would see him in a different light.
To know him like you do
would provide a varying perspective
that would help me be more objective;
to take a step back from my attachment to what I know
and allow a new attitude to grow.
To give him the space to blossom the way he needs to,
and allow him to know myself like I do.
 
To be someone other than me,
would be to experience you all approaching me differently,
allowing me to create an expression of myself
away from my self-limiting personality.
 
I wish to stretch beyond my self-limiting beliefs,
dissolve the emotional memories that keep them in place.
If only you could reach back to me
and meet with me face to face.
If it is so that you know more than I do,
are able to perceive the bigger picture,
then I invite you to seek me out,
and aid me with something of that nature.

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