Hopeless
There are times in life where I doubt the obvious and believe in the uncertain. I tend to make excuses for my own fear to make the next moment sound reasonable to my own mind..........The fear of looking forward to tomorrow has always been my weakness....never wanting to believe that the next day would be given to me just because I believed it would always be there. I had no reason to prepare for tomorrow no desire to plan a future for myself. It’s funny how living this way for so long finally had it’s way of catching up with me. I was not prepared for this self destructive awakening. I was caught off guard with this concrete wave of emotion knocking me off of my ship and into the ocean with every other desperate man. I have no way of getting to you faster........no way of preparing for tomorrows arrival of self-awareness. I have patience. I want time. We will prepare together. I will no longer live like I’m dying. I will live to love you more tomorrow.
