I want to be big spoon...... :-(
There are insignificant yet precious moments that exist in the hearts of everyone. Humanity identifies with the idea and belief in loves’ existence.
I have yet to see loves’ proof.
I read..... I understand.....yet nothing is real.
I know my feelings.
I know my passions.
I know the world.
I wish I was dead........?
I have come to the conclusion that I will never belong to one person. I have come to the realization that no one understands love. No one can make me believe that love is an everlasting relationship. Am I too young to understand? Am I too old to see eye to eye.....? Heart to heart.....?
I have fallen twice in my attempt to grow with the idea of love. For now I have a solution. I am ready to conquer the universe. I love God and am one to admit that I am ashamed to have lived without fearing him. I know that I am not the best servant he has ever given life. But I will not waste this gift contemplating suicide because of my foolish....childish ways. I am an animal!!!! I am the lion!!!! I will seek and devour!!! See clear!!!! Love God through fear!!! Anger is merely an illusion of my own weaknesses!!! Hate is the manifestation of my dark. Love has not been my best characteristic.
Someone please help me believe otherwise!
