I'm Sorry
I’m sorry.
It’s the only thing I can say.
You bring me so much fear,
Fear that makes me wish I was dead.
I only want you to be proud.
I only want to be a family.
Why must you yell at mommy?
What has she done to anger you?
Why do the boys get your love more than me?
Why must you hate the world?
How can you hate everything?
I wish I could say 'I love you’
But you hurt me.
You make me cry.
You yell at me with words that cannot be said.
I always thought I would never find love,
I thought I was bound to end up like mommy.
I thought I’d only find hate.
I thought it was just me,
Just me that was bad.
But it was you...
I met others who loved me,
They were proud of me,
Why weren’t you?
My best friend knew everything,
And yet he still loved me.
Why didn’t you?
He brought me a smile,
You brought me pain.
He showed me light,
You showed me darkness.
He told me not everyone was bad,
You told me they were.
He told me that he loved me,
When you said no one could.
He proved you wrong,
And helped me up
When you made me fall.
He understood,
You never tried.
He saved my life,
You tried to help end it.
You hit me in your anger,
When he was mad,
He never laid a hand on me.
You swore at me,
He swore at your name.
You made me feel worthless,
He made me feel worthwhile.
Around you I am silent,
With him,
My voice is heard.
You tore down my dreams,
He built them.
You hate me,
He hates you.
And most importantly...
He loves me.
(2010)
