I found you at last.
I do not need to see your face,
or know your name.
I just need to know that you were
that you came from the same place

I opened my page and saw that my w
They carry a secret message, a por

Thunder rips dreams from sleep.
The fitful heave themselves upon t
Lightening sears all eyelids open.
The fitful heave themselves upon t
The voluminous sweat from the back

unwanted connection to my youth
uninterrupted stream of consciousn
first memories linger and manifest
periodic reminders of what I can’t
my escape from the void

Within the dead of those we choose
lies a truth forever gone.
Within the dead of those we choose
choose to hate,
or never cared enough to know

I am claustrophobic,
mountains are liberating,
of my humble human anxiety.
Bodies of water seem provocative,
with their two-dimensional facade,

you are happy as a bee,
showing all the other bees
where all the pretty flowers lie.
You are the best bee dancer,
Zumbando in all of the sky.

When faced with the worst of human
the obsession became love.
It could have become something els
When faced with those who could so
the obsession could have become ha

room whitewashed
walls sanitized
me
in a room
broken brain

I don’t belong here,
in the crushing deep abyss.
The triturating pressure,
makes me forget about the asphyxia
The frigid cold,

This hat that fits so snug and tig
This hat that lines my face just r
I stole it from the man in line.
He was stuck in Tuxtla, I was fin
I found it first, these hats are r

I choose love
I choose love
I choose love
Because it is you
Because it is you

You think it’s fear you’re drawing
but continue to relentlessly corne
and you’ll realize fear was a guar
a mask seeking to deceive,
a prelude to the seething energy o

Passing houses,
dusty,
dilapidated,
situated
on the traffic

if i could speak freely,
I would’ve from the start.
If this was easier,
i wouldn’t a gotten so lost.
If I coulda made sense

My mind is a million miles away fr
How’d I get all the way over here
Is there a train going back?
Can I get back by 6am tomorrow mo
I gotta be in the icu,

I was open to trying.
I was open to overcoming,
and I found you running away.
I don’t know where to stand,
to make you not afraid of me.

All the pain rocks me to sleep.
I grew tolerant to the effects,
Addicted to the intoxicating isola
Romanticized despair, holding hope
I can follow the trail at the slig

Dear Mom,
I can’t even begin to tell
how you might have reacted
to the letter I sent.
It was not intended to be hurtful,

Sit awhile and play, refrain from
just long enough to sing, what mig
the cords in my brain, that connec
Don’t forget everything that made
before you were weak, and know, ev

If a demon appeared at my window
I would laugh and say what world
are you trying to find and who
are you looking for, me
are you looking for me?

It doesn’t come through governance
it has existed all throughout.
It doesn’t come through war,
fear and revenge masquerade as lib
It doesn’t come through money,

The two whirling white clouds of s
One soft and sweet from burning ol
The other harsh and irritating fro
The billowing smoke choked out Pa
But only for the moment where brea

She said: “Is there more to your
Is being a Marine not enough?
I wanted to be a firefighter.
I wanted to save people’s lives.
I like manning the 50cal machine g

Ambivalence was taking the power b
Without ever looking back, but the
Ambivalence was the guilt preventi
was the same guilt I was taught to
Ambivalence was people calling me

Darkness accumulates in the moonle
spilling from my mind, adjoining c
I await, no time to have defined s
that I stand strong against the co
Heat... the wretched heat... I st

I lock the door,
to keep out the demons.
They come in,
when I’m sleeping.
My brain——- wide open.

Did you know you can get cavities
in your brain?
It's tired in here and
the sweat dripping
from all these brain cells

I would love love love to get back
I fought fought fought to be the b
I ran ran ran through miles of inv
I stopped because it was controlli
Each step of all those miles – tra

I live on the knifes edge
where if I stray
even a millimeter to the left
I am convinced
that any and every flaw

The leaves drop every fall, yes th
Their genetic residue, like a mill
marking the thousands fallen befor
The next of kin leaflets, bare the
Death is no escape from imperfecti

The waves crash over the barnacle
Crabs and small fish tangle in a b
The air and water meld as one cont
Each are in pursuit of their own m
Birds hover over the seemingly una

I need you to accept who I am.
I need you to not doubt
what I have arrived at regarding w
I need you to listen to what made
I know you know there is no right

First thought not about ethnicity,
but rather, that someone
could exist between identities,
but society is constantly rejectin
Identity is spiky, it’s painful,

What happens
when my ADHD is unleashed?
Or is it anxiety
confused as attention deficit?
My ideas now flow

The first time I heard the word p
She slammed my head against the wa
And I stared straight back into t
Fuming with fire, scorching the ho
There was nowhere to run, nowhere