Reliving the pain I had once felt It has brought me to a thought in… How do I ensure that he will be o… If there is a day when I must go… I don’t know what to do

I listen as they bicker back and f… And remember why I hide myself aw… It’s the only thing I know how to… That puts my emotion at bay. I’ve lost myself somewhere over ti…

My exhaustion has finally won My battle with it finally done Now we have become one And it sure as hell ain’t fun. I honestly wish I could run

I wake with heavy breathing Shadows dancing on the wall. I cannot see what is around me My figure growing small. I shrivle up in a corner

The streets are calling my name Saying, “Girl come and hit it! It’s a feeling that you’ll love!” Don’t you fucking get it? I got reasons to stay away

There are so many things wrong wit… Permanent things I can’t get past… I don’t know where to go or which… All I know is that I do need to l… Learn what I don’t know, what I’v…

There is a glow amongst the ceilin… A slight blue from the night light… The blue calms me. I am swimming in a sea of blankets Struggling to stay warm in the col…

I watch as the clock ticks time by Ticking off each second more And I feel upset. Why am I upset? “A multitude of reasons.”

I gather my tears up in a bottle a… Watching as it drifts away, perhap… Free of sadness, free of pain, fre… Freedom to sleep good dreams of ha… No more twitching, no more screami…

Enduring the pain of heartbreak I walked into my room. Head throbbing, chest bleeding, te… I closed my door and turned, stepp… There he was; sitting in my chair

Dearest memories Of deepest darkest secrets Sweet serenities Swimming through a blackened abyss A smile of cancer,

centerI feel a sullen breathing on… I turn and face my attacker feelin… Until I see his face... No, not you, not you again... You associate with my worst nightm…

I stare at the slightly lit ceilin… Trying to keep from sleep. I won’t let go because I’m terrif… Of what might come after me. I’m done with all of the nightmare…

It’s time for me to go, I need a… After all of the things that I ha… And now to a job with money to pay… For the things that I want, busy… It’s better than home but not quit…