My heart aches constantly

I no longer understand our relationship or where our love is leading us

You brought me into your life, but now you’ve left me stranded,

Sorrow running through my veins.

The carefree start, the anticipation and freedom of getting together,

All the exciting stolen moments have been stripped away

Replaced by appointments and schedules that are out of my control.

Your touch still thrills me but leaves me sad with the knowledge

That it’s fleeting and will soon be gone

Your smile still melts my heart and makes me hope

That all will be right again someday.

I no longer look to the future and the excitement of what it will bring,

Instead trying to get through each day wondering if you’ll

Find the time or desire to fit me into your life.

Why & when I muse did the man I thought was my soul mate

Realize I was not his true love?

How I ask myself can I reconcile my longing and love and desire for him

Knowing he can’t give himself fully to me and doesn’t need me the way I need him?

Is it possible I wonder that we will weather this storm?

Will you come back to me and be my Love again?

Or is the weight of my love a burden, too much for you to bear and I’ve pushed you away?

Will I be left brokenhearted /  my emotions shredded and laid bare /my heart in tatters

Wondering why my love wasn’t enough for both of us.