If I was young I wouldn’t wait

Because before you know it

It’s too late.

It’s too late to cast your reel

Into the open pond of life.

For I am old and filled with strife.

I should have never thought I knew it all.

I knew nothing! I was arrogant and bull headed!

A young twenty something!

I never went to college.

Instead I chose to work, get married and have children.

And I still have no knowledge.

Well, I have gained some knowledge along this path of life

I learned how to be there for my children and spouse

I’ve learned a basic skill for work.

But, nothing that brings in lots of money

Yet God provides none the less!

What am I to do!

But, leave it up to you oh Lord!

Help me to provide a loving and stable home

In my mind I have gone through my life with a fine tooth comb

And realized when I was younger I should have been more humble

For now I am old and in my fifties children underfoot

Thankful we are all healthy. But still I grumble.

I grumble because I feel trapped by debt and age.

Even If I get an education…it’s only knowledge for my head

It will not lead to a better job because of my age

And debt…well unfortunately that’s a fact of life

I will have to work till the day I die to pay it off.

If I was young again I wouldn’t wait

I would be humble, smarter

and listen to others before making a rash decision

I would get an education in what I was passionate about

So, that this poem would never have had to exist