I thought I was okay, that I was over it
Was over the pain and over what you did.
Maybe I am just overtired or overthinking but everything is hitting me hard.
I can’t sleep at night, not easily.
So I am sitting here crying wondering if I did something wrong?
Why you slept with her?
Was I not good enough?
Was I too much to handle?
Did I not love you enough?
How can someone hurt so much?
I am left wondering if I could have done anything different?
I don’t know why to do anymore
I feel so broken when I never thought I was
Friends tell me how proud of me they are, of how I am handling this
But I don’t was to lie anymore.
I feel haunted by memories, haunted by the places we went.
I feel haunted knowing I am the one who is walking around pained.
Feeling broken, empty, used and like I was never good enough for you.
I m just crying, opening up about
Who I poured my heart into and I am just trying to pick myself up.
Piece my tiny piece.
I am just so afraid of what to do and what is to come
I know it wasn't me who did this, who cheated,
I feel as though in some way I messed some part of us up.