(2014)
If I could paint a man Eyes so dark they shine Brooding and stormy Til the smile breaks through If I could paint a man
The strings that attach me To this world Ground me Yes they sometimes Keep me from flying
Clinical smells Polite strangers The only thing worse Than being here Is to not be able
I would never choose To eat a granola bar Or peanut butter crackers Though I eat them All of the time
I told everyone About you The ugly beast Inside of me You can’t hide
I wallow in my sadness As it pools up It has not swallowed me Who floats above its surface This surface
Desperate for his attention Knowing it will drive him away Jealous of a game - how lame Choking self-esteem where I lay Desperate for his affection
A conversation With a true friend Leaves your life richer Maybe with a laugh A smile on your face
It’s not that I’m sad Though I am It’s not that I’m discouraged Though I am It soaks deeper
Itus and Itis Crashed my party I didn’t invite them! I whisper to my sister They make my skin crawl
When I think of my mom I think of malt o meal muffins When I think of my dad Memories of a child Chasing us around the circle
My grandfather told my father when he proposed to my mother on one condition
Long and slender Her every movement Deliberate and graceful Composed as She listens quietly
Have you ever felt A hole inside of you Something dead inside Where your heart Is supposed to be?
My parents always say We’re proud of you I am too I got out of bed I used to get so much done