(2014)
I cannot divide My heart Into four pieces Equally Geometrically
The pine trees Reach up On both sides Of the road Telling me
A palomino gallops Beside the highway Look out the window Rides over green hills Through yellow flowers
Love is sincere Sincerely Wanting to connect Love makes you crazy Insanity that makes you fly
Destruction is fun But cannot be undone Smashed Trashed Crumpled
If I could paint a man Eyes so dark they shine Brooding and stormy Til the smile breaks through If I could paint a man
How do you measure pain? All is relative and personal Even with one’s own self It is impossible to compare As memory distorts pain
Desperate for his attention Knowing it will drive him away Jealous of a game - how lame Choking self-esteem where I lay Desperate for his affection
I struggle to Keep it together Maxims and mottoes On repeat In my mind
I spend all my time Fighting with you In my head If we fought At least it would be
Pretty and dainty Rich girl feet Meant to be Beside the pool They don’t like to work
I’m watching a woman in a bikini In great shape with a swollen bell… Play with her puppy named Gatsby A Hispanic family comes The little girl dips her feet in
Husband and wife Companions for life Mature love that deepens And mellows with time Life’s eroding winds
The medication is not me But neither is the sickness it tre… You may hear its effects In my voice In my opinions
Clinical smells Polite strangers The only thing worse Than being here Is to not be able