I tried to make a list for my life today
like being a better mom so she wont go away
try to keep the good, stay away from the bad
but good is rare and bad is all I’ve ever had
at the age of 12 I learned that nothing in life is fair
those secrets in my life those wounds I will not air
my self respect seems to have drizzled away
like my life did on that 3048th day
every now and then I will buy into my lies
try and make life better but its just a disguise
all I’m really good at is going to bed
and waking up empty wishing I were dead
deep inside I wish I could just stay
asleep forever but here comes another day
another sunrise followed by another sunset
a day filled with nothing but also full of regrets
come take away this burden of sunrise
please rescue me from my list of lies