Wandering off
It is the time in between
The little seconds I spend with myself
Feeling the disconnection between myself and the landscape
The moment I wake up in the morning realizing I’d rather live life backwards
Instead of sleeping in order to wake up
I want to wake up in order to sleep
To feel like time is only a silly move of the hand
To be able to call for you and reach for you
To reach and feel the glow that is exhibited once you’re here
Here with me
Telling me what I do wrong
What I do right
Now I wake up
In need of something I never thought about
In need of the human who puts me in my place
Come back
Tell me I’m only imagining this
Tell me I’m wrong
I’ve never wanted to be wrong as strongly as I do
For it is when I first felt you and your love
A time I can’t remember—even if I wanted to
But you remember
You remember what it was like
You remember how it felt to hold the little human who is the reason for who you are
The reason why you do more than half the things you do
My heart was yours first
Please don’t make it burst
(2015)
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