Without You
I’ve lost far more than I would ever win
It’s daunting to live with the ability to hurt others with your pain
Allowing pain to eat you alive is what darkens souls
Confused, chaotic souls
I caused the storm that would wash you away
I looked up at the sky and wondered where the rainbow was
I became indecisive, lonesome, and guilty all at once
My mental stability became questionable
There I was, psychotic with you
Psychotic thinking of losing
Psychotic when I won you over
Psychotic when I lost you
With you, I felt strangely normal
The normality I hardly ever felt
Stabilized and loved
I was relieved to let you roam free, away from my polluted mind
To let you do what you love doing
Now here I am, still psychotic
Abnormal and weak
You go in day in and day out
Living, roaming free
Here I am, feeling anything but normal
For I was psychotic with you
I thought everyone saw what I saw
It was all in my head
Here I am, even more psychotic and abnormal without you
(2015)
I wrote this while listening to "Ghost Song" by Jim Morrison/The Doors. It was glorious. Enjoy. :)
