With a single word a person can change the way they see things. From a single conversation. From a simple book a person can open their eyes of understanding. From all of these things people have one constant. And that is change of feeling. Not a change of love, but a change of feeling. love is an action. It is something we all take part in to coexist with one another and to survive. Love doesn’t change. It can stop but it doesn’t change. You can not alter love, and you can not downgrade it. Love is and alway will be the strongest and most critical tool you are able to use. Love is an action and it is also a decision. As should i express love to this person? Or keep a more substantial feelings towards them. People will try to tell you that caring, is not loving. No. Caring is an synonym of loving. it is a representation of love. You see love through caring. It is almost as maybe a window. A window to see love and how it works. And i am disappointed in myself. I was selfish by needing a certain persons love. I was taking. I was taking it. I wasn’t in love. I was just consuming it. You can not be in love if all you do is consume. I was an consumer. I was loved by someone. And when we were incapable i thought i needed that certain person’s love. Sometimes i feel i still do. I see now that i don’t need her love. But i need to love her. Not consume hers. I need to love and take care of her when she needs me the most. Not just to kiss me to give me a rush of excitement in which is a feeling. it will eventually go away. but if i was to give love. Constantly, and not instantaneously i will have corrected my love towards her.This is what i am shooting for. To love and care. Not to consume it.
(2015)