For years and days I have given my soul
naively believing I was loved and appreciated.
For minutes and seconds my heart pulsated in the
rhythm of yours... eternity was what I lived in Every hour spent
with you
promise of love, the promise of honesty, a diamond heart I held
or so I thought... Delicately your heart buried deep within my chest, protected against all heart break, sorrows and pains
while mine was worn a sleeve, simply letting the grime and dirt, pollute
my train of thought, letting each and every hand that laid on you bruise my being!
Ignorant yet still I remained, willingly living in my very own
fairy tale when reality came crushing down and my ignorance
scattered, naive was I no longer the day I saw you with her.
Your muscular arms wrapped tightly around her body, chemistry
of never wanting to let go lingered above,
Your tender lips locking in with her, exchanging not only the fluid
but the soul I thought I had exchanged with you,
Your smile as you looked into her eyes, they seemed another dimension to create for you, as I watched you get lost in the story they told.
I saw you with her, our passionate moments flooding on our bed... only this was not a memory and I was not in those moments created.
Your angelic voice uttering words I thought only my ears would be blessed at hearing.
I saw you with her, Heard you with her, My thoughts tainted by the visuals of your body on hers, her lips on yours.
My heart wripped apart, that moment felt as if the ripper had just sucked my soul from right under my nose, am I still standing? Thought I felt my body collapse at the tone of you whispering sweet nothings into her ears... life is no longer life as I am now walking dead.
I saw you with her, felt you heart beating for her... saw the end of myself from afar... the destruction of me you have completed. Thought I was the only one blessed with the utterances of that gentle “I love you”. Foolish enough to believe years mean life.
I left you with her.