(2014)
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
The peace you brought, It was misleading. Unknowingly, You sneak up, With your hypnotic dance.
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
