For you.
(2014)
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.