For you.
(2014)
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;