(2014)
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
The peace you brought, It was misleading. Unknowingly, You sneak up, With your hypnotic dance.
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
