(2014)
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
The peace you brought, It was misleading. Unknowingly, You sneak up, With your hypnotic dance.
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,