(2014)
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
The peace you brought, It was misleading. Unknowingly, You sneak up, With your hypnotic dance.
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
