For Mum.
Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
The peace you brought, It was misleading. Unknowingly, You sneak up, With your hypnotic dance.
A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
48 years of beautiful life, ended. 23 years of knowing you, ended. 13 years of caring for you,
Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
