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Mathew James

Unanswered questions

48 years of beautiful life,
ended.
23 years of knowing you,
ended.
13 years of caring for you,
ended.
Loving you...
Never ending.
So many questions..
Was it futile?
Did it help?
Or prolong your suffering?
It’s over now.
So does it matter?
Did it matter?
Will it matter?
Someone tell me.
Please?

Other works by Mathew James...
Deafening Silence

A lifetime given, To a life now taken. A love now silenced, Will be forever deafening.
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You

The words spoken By them. Knowingly sly and spiteful. So cold. So calculated.
Emptiness

Emptiness. A void in his very being He tries to fill. Drugs, sex,
 1
Temporary blindness

Cowardice. Seeking comfort from chemicals. Not facing what I ought to face, Terrified. “..I was blind, but now I see..”
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 4
Your voice.

When you left, Your voice was always there. In the house, On the street. Everywhere.
Michael.

Staying afloat, I’m ripped down again. Into the deepest abyss. With notice
 2
Beginning the journey.

Venturing into the unknown. The mind stops, terrified. Yet; the heart pushes forward, ever curious and hopeful.
Observation.

Watching the world. Paper, Plastic, Celebrity, Religion.
A simple thank you.

Just a simple thank you. Thank you for guiding me. For always being there, waiting. Greeting me.
Choices.

The peace you brought, It was misleading. Unknowingly, You sneak up, With your hypnotic dance.
 1
Never ending cycle.

The love, The hatred, Going in circles. Like a train on set tracks, Around and around.
Transference?

There is no more pain, No more grief, Anger, Depression, Anxiety;
Taking the chance.

Learning to swim Uncharted waters; The walls. Barriers, Built over years.
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Tarnished soul

Dull, Worn, Scratched, And torn. An antique soul,
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A gift.

Take this. This gift. An escape. Ever silent, Ever painless.
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