Holding
Its hard holding onto something
That was never meant to be
Although I swear I tried
There’s just something wrong with me
I know I said I’d be there
But I had to walk away
For all the knowledge that we share
Has set me a stray
I got distracted by my feelings
and run away with every thought
When we wanted the same thing
But your words just had me caught
We had a simple agreement
To be confidants and nothing more
and I tried hard just to be that
but you just feel so poor
I want nothing but to hold you
and to tell you it’s okay
Know everything I said was true
not just cause I wanted you to stay
and I’m sorry that I lost it
I dragged it way too far
When it’s nothing that you need
and for me it’s just too hard
There’s no room for me at this time
but I’m different like you believed
It’s just a heart that’s not mine
and know that’s no relief
I’ve talked with you, I’ve listened
I set you straight when you were lost
I’d give you everything I have
but i’m just not sure it’s worth the cost
Once upon a time
I told you “a friend forever”
and although I’m silent now
I hope that’s something you’ll remember
I hope that you can understand
the distance I must make
But you can always find me
if my advice is what you take
Once again I am sorry
If I proved to let you down
but I can’t help but worry
when I’ve seen nothing but a frown
I know I’ve got work to do
my life, myself, right here
but there’s a reason I need to thank you
you’ve helped me surpass my biggest fear
(2013)
