Why do you hate me?
Why do you not understand?
Why can’t you see,
My life’s almost at its end?
I used to be only love and kindness.
Now you see me?
No, of course not. Your blinded of the new me.
its been a yr now,
Since it all started.
My pain and hurt and realization of the world.
So painfully I had to meet.
I’ve tried call-outs, but they never work.
Your so blinded by my ex happiness,
You don’t even see.
I struggle more than imagination can fore-see.
I have done so many things,
But you couldn’t even think.
One phrase, all it takes.
“I believe”
How dare you not know.
I’ve even tried to come clean.
You never listen to me!
You tell me so much.
“It’ll be ok.” “Your fine.” “Stop making excuses to be lazy.” “Stop acting like its the end of the world.” “Stop saying untrue things.” “Stop acting childish.” “You don’t understand the grown-up life.” “Stop trying to be mature. Your not ready.”
Why don’t you open your freaking eyes!!!
I’ve experienced things your mind cant even wonder!
You tell me I don’t understand this world, but I’ve seen, heard, and done things you never even heard of!
You think I’m immature, but yet you throw me around in circles of endless pain and misery!!
Misery loves MY company! (-quoted Three Days Grace-)
Why can’t you understand me?
Why don’t you even try?
You wonder why I don’t come to you about things?
Because you never even TRY to understand.
You tell me that I shouldn’t say things like that and control myself, and how much you do try, but all those are are LIES!!
You’ve lied so much..
Even you have learned to believe in them..
I used to be a young immature girl...
But now I know more...
I’m growing more and more into the world every day..
Cutting.. Suicidal thoughts..
Things you wouldn’t get..
I just so BADLY wish you did...
But you cant get it.. And you never will..
I hate everything about you...  (-another Three Days Grace quote-)
When my time comes, even if its soon, your uninvited to my funeral..
And if you come you’ll be haunted..
Your so selfish..
At least I try to change..
But you can’t even help me.. And you couldn’t even if you tried..
But that’s 100% unlikely...
I’m tired of you, and you should feel ashamed..
You weren’t there for someone in need..
And you gave up on her trying to get help..
Shes soon gonna be gone, but you just don’t care..
Your too cold to understand....