Hope? What the fuck is hope?  Here hope meet rope put it around your neck and more the chair and choke. Where were you hope, when I needed your hope hoping my friend will live through that car crash. It happened so fast till this day I still have a grip of the past. But I got to let go,  I’m asking questions that I’ll never know, like who? when? what and why? did you leave. Till this days I kinda find it hard to believe. I wished you lived through that situation, my minds got me racing, it’s got me loosing concentration, also gives me motivation to live this journey that I’m facing. I know one day I will make you and my mother proud. I’m living for the three of us as in right now. I look up I still see your face in the clouds, it kind of bothered me how you had you life planed, out but didn’t get the chance to life the half of it. So many fake friends I seen a your funeral, crocodile tears hitting the ground the your burial. I never had the chance to see you but I promise I will,  losing a mother then a close friend is one of the worst pains to ever feel.