INTROSPECTION
REFLECTION DURING A PERIOD WERE I SUFFERED FROM SELF-HANDICAPPED ATYCHIPHOBIA
The respect and fear i had for my teacher was the only thing that made me do my school projects.
One day, I woke up and i was fearless, intrepid in a stupid way.
A loud voice in my head told me that the only worst thing that will ever happen to me in this entire life is dying and nothing else.
That is how i stopped doing my work.
I remember very well how the teacher tried to talk to me about how i was going down if i continued acting like a fool.
For some reason, i was so calm and i felt like i was seeing myself falling into a deep pit.
The moment I got to the the bottom of the pit, that is when i started to reflect on myself.
It was a funny yet hurting period in which i began to know myself.
To have known how low i can go when i am fearful.
To have known how happy i can be when i am in stressful conditions.
To have known how i can lose my mind when i am panicking.
To have known how calm i can be during my downfall.
To have known and admit to the toxicity in me and how it affected my life.
To have known how stray i can be when i am gambling with my spiritual life.
To have known myself and how much i have lost to FEAR.
