Residue
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how can i still taste you on my lips
and every time i spit
there’s a residue that sits
resembles the bullsh*t
it used to quench my thirst
especially at first
now all it does is hurt
never felt anything worse
and i still smell you on my clothes
like i was just holding you close
the scent of you is the only truth
that is keeping me afloat
but that’s subject to change
just like the feelings on your brain
it’s time to just unchain
before gasoline meets the flame
but once the dust stills
and the air starts to chill
i know i’ll crave you’re warmth again
i’m not strong enough willed
i hate being alone
i hate being without you
i hate that fact i was jealous
i hate that i’d ever doubt you
you know i love it all
your beauty and your flaws
you know i get the butterflies every time you call
and im sorry that it’s fleeting
and im sorry that it’s gone
i apologize for everything
i was always in the wrong
you played a part
you took my heart
you knew i was so vulnerable
you could smell it from the start
i thought i could fix you
then you fixed yourself.
and all it took was quitting me
fuck in sickness or in health
