They Left Me Laying in the Street to Take All of the Blame; Knowing That They Left Me to Dig My Own Grave
You know who you are
Let us all take a moment of silence
To recall all of the violence
That occurs everyday in every province
Our vices become our Christ as we lose our minds and we choose to be defined as
The ones who failed
Let us address this
Let us dress you
To suitable standards
Standards I could never be expected to meet
But I won’t be beat when I’m walking the streets that I can say I literally almost died on
I had my last legs on with these shoes on and my hat on and there was nobody there to lean back on
So I sat on and I spat on the main person blame
Myself, I am shame
This is a game that I chose to play and all in all I’m out of luck
Because I’ve lost the friends I thought I could trust and I took care of them and gave them love
And they left me laying in the street
Choking on my own vomit
Suffocating on the concrete
I couldn’t walk, couldn’t talk
I couldn’t even try
Because the ones I loved the most left me there out of fright
They left me there to die hoping I’d be alright
That if I lived I’d lie and go along with what they say
But I’m not the only that’s to blame
I know we all messed up but isn’t it a shame
They left me laying in the street to take all of the blame
And possibly even dig my own grave
I’m happy I lived to feel the rage
I want to hurt them but I know my place
Even so they already know
Everything has changed
And they won’t get away
No not from this
Because they all are to blame as I am too
I’m pissed, I’m broken, left behind and abused
But I won’t let it get the best of me
Walking these streets that are dead to me
I almost died but lived because God could see
It wasn’t my time
But now it’s my time to shine
To turn it all around
The night is so cold
The concrete so hard
So unforgiving
But no matter how much it sucks I’ll continue living
I was given this, I wanted this, I tried for this, I bled for this, I cried for this
I almost drowned in my own saliva
Foaming at my mouth
Having it all run down my face and drip off my lips
I never wanted this
I didn’t mean to
But it happened
I’ll change soon
I’ll get better
I will be clean
Because they are not my 'friends’
And I will make myself redeemed
(2014)
This exact thing happened to me recently. (Yesterday) I'd been drinking with some friends and I had a bad reaction to the coconut content and the fact that I'm on medication.
My friends left my laying in the street, passed out having a seizure. I was in a pool of my own vomit and saliva. I was suffocating on the foam coming up from my stomach.
It was my fault yes, but they left me. To die. And I needed to get some of the hurt out of my chest.
#Behind #Drinking #Enraged #FakeFoamFriendsLeftMessingMouth #OfScared #Sick #Suffocation #TheTrying #Up #Vomit
