The break-up
And it’s an atrocity,
While I feign sleep, count sheep,
Heart beats,
Like an ECG so steep.
Racing, chasing,
Dreams that cannot be,
That never were.
All because you fucked her.
But no,
It feels like more, more, more.
It is the raging, pulsing
Devil in me, of me,
Devil I see
That always surfaces like slick oil on a calm sea.
Rise to the top,
Fucking disgusting,
Clinging to my skin it burns and I can’t wake from this dream!
I’ll never be clean.
Don’t you see?
I never knew the dormant sickness in me.
Til you killed the hopes and joy and love in me.
Angels and beauty filled my days,
I lived in heavens eternal sunrays.
Reject impurity,
Love granted immunity,
From devilishness and immoral ways.
You’ve given me death.
Taught me shame.
Turned me needy, greedy, selfish and sleazy.
All I knew,
Taken by you.
But when you’re done,
With walking the earth lost and alone,
I’ll still be cold in the ground
Holding tight to the piece of you that I found.
The warmth and the glow,
Of all I now know,
Sickens and poisons like hot water on snow.
Hssssssss...
It burns and it screams,
But I can’t wake from my dreams!
Cause these are not dreams,
Not nightmares pulling hard at the seams.
All is, as it seems.
Tread softly, tread softly.
Stamp your feet,
The burning heat,
Of emptiness
Nothingness.
You took my dreams
And instead gave me life.
Innocence lost,
Cause resonance costs,
Harden your heart and
Move on.
‘and in the end it felt like everything always feels. It felt like nothing.’
