(2015)
2015-01-12-22-48-02 I’m on to something new Just trying to get over you What in the world am I thinking? Was it really that much?
There are so many things I’d like to say to you But when I see your face My mind just goes blank I’m terrified
One more meeting Just one more Rendezvous And the courage To speak up
Nothing to see in your Reflection The only life you possess Is what you Devour
Self Determination It’s never free There is always a cost Self determination Requires
2014-12-29-23-07-15_journalx It is all too easy to be a smug pr… I don’t watch t.v. I don’t eat McDonald’s I don’t use facebook
I love your grace Always seeing beyond The ruins left In the wake of sin I love your strength
I can no longer trust my mind not to betray me, and devour me To bury me with thoughts of insecu… Was it love was it something else
I never told you a lie I was honest from the start You knew about my wife You knew who I was You accepted the facts
She was never mine I was never her’s Neither loved as a possession Both possessed By the love we shared
I want you Out of my head Out of my heart I want your memory To leave me be
There’s a hollow place Where your heart belongs Its vacuous emptiness Drains all compassion Consumes without satiation
Whether moth to flame Or drawn in like fly to shit You captivate me
A powerful master Frequently cloaked Obscured by half truths Demands masked as duty Though there is nothing lovely in…
Youth is wasted Proving you are a man Seniority is wasted Lementing lost youth