My Life is Pretend
To everyone who is faking a smile
I’m one of those people who always have a smile on my face
I’m that one girl that is optimistic about the world
I’m always there whenever you need to laugh
You’ve never seen me sad
That’s because I never show it
You all wonder why?
If I say I’m sad, I’m an attention whore
If I don’t say anything, I’m emo
So I hide it deep down inside me
And I throw on a smile
That way nobody will judge me
They cant judge my emotions if I don’t have any to be judged
And nobody knows the true meaning of my wrist tattoos
I’m afraid of the judgments
Afraid that they’ll worry about me
I’m okay
They don’t need to worry
Life is hard and it brings us all down
Some show it and some don’t
I know that I’ll be okay someday.
I’m strong. I’m young and beautiful.
But I can’t say that, otherwise I’m conceited.
They think I’m happy. Sometimes they’re right
But right now, I’m sad
Nobody knows that though
The only ones I tell are my pets
I tell them because they won’t tell
And they won’t judge.
And they might be the only ones
It’t not just my peers, but my friends and my family
My friends will look at my different
Won’t know what to say
They’ve forgotten all the things I’ve said to them
My family won’t understand.
They are always judging me
I’m different from them and that’s bad
I don’t do things the way they do and so it’s wrong
And so I live my sad life everyday
The stereotypes and judgments keep a fake smile on my face
That’s just the world we live in
The kind that stereotypes define us
If you’re a male cheerleader, you’re gay
If you’re a pregnant teen, you’re a whore
If you don’t go to the gym everyday, you’re fat
And if you show your sadness, you’re weak
So I throw on a fake smile
And I pretend everything is alright
I pretend my tattoos mean something else
I pretend I don’t cry
I pretend my life is happy
I don’t get sad
My life is pretend
