Can i take a moment of yall time we all just need to sit down i want you but not now see i still have my love around its not fair for you to wait i understand if u don’t stay truthfully u should just let me be everything i am is wrapped into my history my past, my lover, my special little person & thinking of leaving him is such a burden i can’t deal thinking id hurt him but on the other hand best friend i can’t just go back to you after all the stuff u put me through i know i said never would i ever but today might have to be the end of forever I’ve lost so many way better men just to come back to someone I’m familiar with you know exactly why i put up with this because my heart knows who always picks up the pieces does everyone understand now? did we settle anything with this sit down? i still love him but i still fear drowning so do i make something new with you since I’m doubting only time can tell what’s going to happen i still have time i think, to fix this madness