“Where were you”

Being trapped in your own thoughts. Trapped in your own body. Stuck in silence with all the hurt and sadness.  
Where were you?
All they see is the fake smiles and made up happiness. The hidden pain but Where were you?
You were supposed to be my protector, my provider, my teacher, my friend, my MOTHER!!
When I needed a shoulder to lean on  I held myself up. When people tried to bring me down I fought my way back up. Where were you?

In a world with so many ppl yet it could still make you feel so alone.
You were supposed to be here.
With your child, your creation, your other half. But where were you?

My first kiss, my first feel of sensation was shared with someone you called yours. Where were you?
2 long years you never seen the hurt in your babies eyes when they were crying out for you. Being touched by a man that was supposed to be pleasuring you. A father figure to your daughter but all he wanted to do was feel up your daughters figure.

8 years old I used to see you walk through the house like a zombie as the drugs took over your body. I saw all the pain and stress in your eyes and I wanted to be right there to help you through it. I was your cheerleader, your biggest fan. But who was there for me? Where were you?

Through all the tears I cried, the pain I caused on myself marking up my arms, the thoughts of wanting to leave this thing we call life alone. There’s still one thing that I wanted most of all, and that was the love of my mother.

With all the struggle and hardship comes strength. Strength and growth is all I know. I fought through it all, but where were you?
Nobody will every understand why I am the way I am or how I got through all these obstacles I faced. People judged and made fun of my lifestyle and talked about my struggles but it only made me stronger. And where were you?
From a kid to a woman I am my own hero. They say life’s a test. I been through the worst but I still try my best.