my days have up till now been boring.
I have had no purpose to follow no calling.
i tried my hardest for i could not ever see,
That my life was simply waiting for me.
I want to achieve all of the things that i feel a need to do
that will make me happy because i know it in my mind to be true.
No matter how many days or months or years i am searching,
It would be enough for me to have one day of pure happiness and no yearning ..
Because when i reach that place in time i will not be looking back..
I will not be thinking about the bad things and the good things that i lack..
Like i used to.
i will lack nothing.
my life will be my own creation and that is something.
i will be to busy enjoying the time that i have in front of my eyes,
to sit around and despise the time i spent not feeling alive and worried about the fact that everything dies Instead of using my time,
appreciating the ammount that i have and that i have it at all and if this may be my last day i lived it the right way
Because im doing what i want to do,
Writing this speech for you to read and hopeing that i will get threw,
To a lot of people going threw this struggle too.