Sitting alone dark and cold
Grab a tissue and dab at my tears
A year has gone by and I’m still
A constant, continuous, miserable
A mindset so poisonous and I can’

One last thought before I hit the
I just can’t stay here I hope you
This life isn’t for me
I’m becoming a groupie
I’d rather be found under a palm t

I don’t want to come out and say t
But you’ll be fine and happy for m
And then you’ll get depressed
You’re sad for things that never h
And you’ve got that crazy look in

My mind is heavy
It’s hard to fight
I’m forever denying feeling like s
I’m trying so hard
But I’m sinking in this ship

There are some days that I just h
I have to take a look at myself in
But I never like what I see
And I’m not talking about my appe
Because I honestly couldn’t care

To save a life would be a wonderfu
As one dies another could live
The beautiful miracle of removing
A transplant that could save anoth
The tragedy of ones death could be

You asked today why I feel the ne
I shrugged it off and replied with
You pointed at the cigarette betwe
You said my soul was turning black
I laughed at that because you shou

Contradicting thoughts come over m
With what I’m taught and who I wi
With passion and time and healing
Maybe I’ll find myself not wastin
My time, my turn

I found your shirt in my room toda
And I realized the smell of you h
I listened to your favorite song
And realized I wasn’t the one who
I think you’re just too busy looki

Awaken from this lonely grave
Alone I walk; afraid and stray
The rain pours down
And shakes in the wind
But it doesn’t bother me one bit