For years you’ve heard me talk about it.. for the longest it was a joke but now that it has happened to me im blending in with the rest of the folks.
Its suppose to bring you joy and be a beautiful thing so why is it i feel like crying or letting out a scream? I wanna settle down but i still want to explore... Its seems my options are limited God please send me more. This is gonna hurt a lotta people and make me lose a lot of friends how will i explain it to them... How do i begin? I hope it isnt ugly i dont want it to be sick and dont have and dissabilities unless its something i can fix. Maybe im over reacting. Maybe this is just a scare maybe im draggin the whole thing out and theres nothing even there, maybe its just anxiety maybe im overthinking, look what this is doing to me... all the stress its bringing. But then if it is true whos gonna have my back, whos gonna bring me comfort and tell me im not fat? I dont wanna be alone i want him to stay with me... but what if its too much and he decides to leave. Im just gonna rest, and pray for my own sake. my blood is probably boiling so ill give my mind a break