Hate
The night I was there I just sat and stared
So fucked up in my head Booze and weed heavy like lead
The people leave I want to heave
Lights turn off Rubbing hands feeling soft
Cherry burning bright red My mind churning trying to tread
You come over to me I just want to run and flee
I can’t move frozen with fear You whisper, want a beer
I refuse wanting to leave Thinking my legs don’t work I believe
You lean in I back away You hold me down I try to pray
I couldn’t do anything I don’t know why I just wanted to disappear and die
You messed with my body I tried to lock but you stole the key
You ruined me inside and out I wanted to yell, cry, pout
Finally you quit and said have fun I don’t want to do this I try to run
But you keep me in place right there To this day it is hard to bear
I’ve never told anyone I loved Except for a few I thought I loved
You made me hate you for what you did I don’t know why it’s been covered with a lid
I finally got away when the lights came up Before that you said you better make this fun as you got a cup
My body was taken without a choice I wish at that time I had a voice
Lights up I begin to cry my friend said I’m sorry you didn’t have to try
I explained it wasn’t my choosing but from then on my story was loosing
She helped me up and I slept from then on all I did was wept
I try not to speak of it ever again I will never be pushed again and will never be pinned
