To The Ultimite
I sit in my seat, everyone moving around me
Talking, laughing, and happy
It seems that they’re all in slow motion
I don’t exist
All the pain, sadness, and anger rise up in me
Like lava in a valcano about to errupt
It reaches to the top and I can’t hold back
A tear falls to the floor
I just wanna scream out and let everyone know how hurt I am
I hold it in as I head for the door
Everyone became slower
It felt as if everyone was staring in shame
It’s as if the ground I walk upon became broken glass
Waiting for that final crack, for it to shatter and me to fall
I try to hold my head up high
This is for you, no one else
I’m a wounded soul asking for your help
Help to get through this thing called life
You answer my prayers, give me strength to go on
To sit at my seat take in what I can
While I want things to be back to what they were once before
I take the criticizium, I take the trip
But nothing can make me fall
I give to you my wounded soul to help repair and dominate
I betrayed you once, there won’t be a twice
Please understand I wasn’t myself
Please understand I would turn back time, just to make it up to you
Please understand there’s nothing I’ve wanted more than to be apart of your family again
Please understand i’m not going anywhere ever again
Please understand I don’t want a life without you by my side
Please understand i’m sorry, my god, my friend
(2014)
