Coping Mechanisms
Stayed up all nite snawting potentenly thought i could potentially forget my worries thought i could forget about how im hurting ignoring the fact that coke brings just as much worry and even more dependency i remember buying bag after bag cause i was inlove but she said she said she was no longer feeling me abused the dope to supress the lost lonely me and honestly after it was gone everything was instanly back cold instanly the fire went out on the stove and my mind right back drove why do i do this to myself? Why do people ignore you when all you needed was a little help worst feeling i ever felt was alone and not strong enough to love myself i wonder why more people show up when its a death then when your alive contemplated suicide but i just got too much pride still dying inside no interest in being here but here i am at this point in time im eagar to know who i really am i know im more then a addict with bad habits
