eyes open
my eyes open
i wake alone as the first light of day fills the room
an unbearable ache
i close my eyes against the tears
my eyes open
im alone. i go about my life.
lonliness is my companion
and i live chasing shadows
of what should have been
i close my eyes against the memories
my eyes open
im alone. still. the peices once broken
have now begun to heal
the scars sink below the surface and i am cold.
i with draw into myself. and work to become stronger.
my eyes close. maybe one day things wont be so hard
my eyes open
distance grows between the loneliness and i
friends are finally made
i sink into a easy, happy routine.
my eyes close. im finally ok. with myself.
my eyes open
i see a beautiful person
someone strong and confident
with deep, gentle brown eyes
a warm happy smile
i forget to breathe. my eyes close
my eyes open
i see him
nothing else.
in him, i see a part of a far more perfect me
someone i wish i could be
some one i need to know.
my eyes close. i know ive already fallen.
time begins to blur. months pass by like weeks.
all in a lovely haze.
and nothing is the same.
my eyes open
the first light of day fills the room
i smile.
a framed picture of a beautiful boy
with deep gentle brown eyes
a warm happy smile
is the first thing i see
and i remember.
my eyes close in welcome to a thousand perfect memories.
my eyes open
and for the first time i actually see..
